Friday, 18 December 2009


It's 18 December 2009. Roughly this time last year, I was stressing over the thought of spending Christmas with people who don't like me (i.e., my boyfriend's family). This year, I'm not as stressed, although I do have a niggling fear that Christmas, as usual, may not be a happy one.

But that's not related to CFS. Or is it? Looking back, it seems like this time last year, I didn't talk very much about my physical incapabilities. Perhaps I simply got tired of droning on. But it makes me wonder if now - a year on - my ability to recover completely is being hampered by not my physical capibilities, but not knowing what my physical limits are.

In these past few months, I have been rockclimbing, going on field trips to help with studies on birds, going on weekend-long camping trips, walking my dog, and volunteering at two offices. I wouldn't say I've been inactive in the slightest.

So, how am I not normal? Well, I do ache, though not as badly as before. And I do rest a lot - but wouldn't anyone with a lifestyle like mine?

I wonder if my need to rest can be lessened by toning down on my activities, and my aches can be fixed by eating right (lots of veggies, no wheat, no sugar, no dairy, among other things) - I haven't been strict with my diet.

Maybe it should be my new year's resolution to tone it down a bit and eat well. Maybe after eating well, and not doing things around the clock, I'll have more energy to focus on getting fitter, and ultimately, more 'normal'.

In any case, I've come a long way in a year. All things considered, it has been a great year of recovery.


Anonymous said...

hi, great to hear you have come so far! what does your doctor say? is he able o help you any more can he explain why you havent recovered fully? also great blog I really enjoy reading it.

CFS Uncensored said...

Thanks, glad you like the blog. :) I think from now on it's just about staying the course. Now that I'm better, it's really easy to forget to take pills here and there, and then not realise until it's too late. Having said that, despite not being diligent with pills and eating right, I haven't crashed in a while, so I am pretty much normal really. As for recovering the last little bit, my doctor often says I was sick for a long time, so it'll take a long time for me to get better; which makes sense to me!

Anonymous said...

hello, I read that you treated candida. can I ask what you used to treat it and do you feel that it worked? did you have any die off symptoms or anything? thanks

Anonymous said...

hello, can you please make a new post. thankyou

CFS Uncensored said...

Hi there, I'm afraid I can't remember the name of the anti-candida medication I took. Treating candida was part of the entire treatment plant created by my doctor. Throughout the whole process I did struggle in order to get better, but I think trusting my doctor and sticking with his plan - through thick and thin - helped immensely. I know it is hard, given how many useless doctors there are out there, but I think a big part of my success was helped by my belief in the treatment program.